When Sri Sathya Sai beautified the Administrative Building of His University… Sri Sathya Sai arriving at the University headquarters December, 1982 Sri Sathya Sai instructing Registrar Chakravarthi about interior decoration at the entrance of the University Admin Building  Bhagavan played the role of an expert interior decorator in beautifying the interior rooms in the Administrative building of Sri Sathya Sai Institute Higher Learning, and guided Sri Chakravarthi, Registrar of the Institute from time to time. Bhagavan had sent a number of objects of art and curios to be displayed. He used to visit the building often to inspect the progress of the decoration work. He used to recollect the objects that He sent to the Institute and in repeated visits, would ask for confirmations of their preservation and proper maintenance.  Indeed a unique Chancellor who not only guided the engineers and architects about the shape of the dome in the Administrative building, but also gave directions in the art of interior decoration!

“What is Gita?” December 9, 1997 Swami  : What is this? Student  : Vedam competition card, Swami. Swami  : What is this? (Pointing to the globe on the card)  Student  : Earth, Swami. Swami  : Earth middle Me Hai. Ye Kya Hai? (Earth is in the centre. What is this?) Student  : Swami, the earth rotates. Swami  : (Swami read the contents of the card) Vedam Competion 10th, 11th, 12th … individual… chanting… Gita… What is Gita?  Student  : Song, Swami. Swami  : What song? Student  : Krishna’s song… Student 2  : Celestial song, Swami. Swami  : Wisdom song… How was the morning talk? (Referring to a talk given by a senior government official in the Prashanti Nilayam Campus Auditorium for the Thursday Moral Class) Student  : Nice, Swami. Swami  : I didn’t like. He is a government officer and he was talking about Harshad Mehta, mistakes committed by the police, etc. (After a pause) What was there for lunch? Student  : Rice and Sambar. Swami  : What vegetables? Student  : Brinjal, Swami. Swami  : Brinjal for sambar!! What vegetable with Chapatti? Student  : Radish peas curry. Swami  : What is peas in Telugu? Student  : Batani. Swami  : What is radish? Student  : Mullangi, Swami.

Shri Sathya Sai “What is happiness?” December 11,  1997 Swami  : (To a student) How are you? Student  : Happy. Swami  : What is happiness? Happiness is union with God. (After a pause) Not with wife!!  (To a teacher) Who is doing the torch work? (referring to the torch to be made for the Annual Sports Meet of the Sri Sathya Sai Educational Institutions.) Teacher  : Swami, some 2nd P.G students are taking care of it. Swami  : Don’t make any animal structures like horse or donkey. Pakshi Cheste Baaguntundi. (It will be good if you make the troch in the form of a bird,) December 12, 1997 To the students who are preparing the torch… Swami  : Enduku Chata Techaru? (Why did you bring winnowing basket?) Then the students showed some models. Swami told that He had already seen them in the afternoon. Swami liked one of them. The teacher, who was in charge told Swami that it was an eagle and the model would be brown in colour. Swami  : Make a dove. You should make it beautiful, cricketers seeing it should be surprised. Even the Prime Minister will be present.  Students  : Yes, Swami.

Sri Sathya Sai Inaugurates the Kurnool Cloth Market Friday, December 04, 1964 to  Thursday, December 10, 1964 On December 4th, Swami inaugurated the Sreenivasa Cloth Market at Kurnool, and gave some guidelines to the members regarding the administration of the market. He said: “The opening of this Shrinivasa Cloth Market is just an excuse for My coming to Kurnool and meeting all of you, including the two ministers, Dr. Lakshminarasiah and Alapathy Venkataraamiah. Life itself is a market, where giving and taking, bargaining and speculating are part of the game. Life has its ups and downs, its profits and losses, its balance sheets and disappointments, its joys and sorrows. But the giving of Bhakti (devotion to God) in exchange for Mukti (liberation) is the most profitable business of all; and I am interested in telling you about that only. Bhakti is not simply the worship of the Lord; it is much more than that. Primarily it is the control of the senses; for, when life is offered as worship, the senses do not run after transient things. They can be thus controlled, for man is not a weak animal; he is endowed with mighty spiritual power and he can learn to use it; he can tap this power through prayer, which brings down Grace to fill the reservoir of his heart. Man tames the lion and the elephant to obey his call; can he not tame his emotions and passions? Make your strength evident in the face of hardships; when all goes well, you become soft, the blows of defeat toughen you into heroes. The difficulties that the organisers of this market encountered, as described to us in the report, show that they but deepened the determination of Raamalingiah and others to plod on, until they won through. Alapathy Venkataraamiah is the Minister in charge of temples in Andhra and the words of advice which he gave now are worthy of attention. He spoke of the culture of India and its excellence. It held up to mankind for reverence of not conquerors and millionaires but hermits and saints. He has also a great love for Sanskrit, the language of our scriptures, which give this land the inspiration to advance along the spiritual path of discrimination and non-attachment. The scriptures are so framed that they serve the highest needs of all classes of people, whatever their age, avocation or attainment. Like a loving mother the Vedas guide and guard all her children, wherever they may be. The body is worn by the Jeeva to realise God Venkataraamiah also said that the attitude of Bhakti is the important thing, not the name and form which has drawn it out. Yes; the Lord has a thousand names. In fact, all names are His; there is no name that is not His. Krishna, Shrinivasa, Sai Baba – all are names of the same entity. The body is worn by the Jeeva in order to realise God, the source from which the Jeeva came. That is why it is said that it is very lucky for living beings to get equipped with the human physique. To be endowed with a desire for things of the spirit is the height of fortune. A grandfather was fondling his grandson, a little lad of four; the boy asked him his age; the grandfather said he was seven; the lad refused to believe; how could a boy of four have a grandfather of seven? But, the old man said, “My dear boy! I do not care for all the 63 years I spent in the darkness; it is only seven years since I came under the influence of a Guru, who opened my eyes and led me along the path to realisation. I have lived only seven years so far; the rest, I could as well ignore as wasted. I speak the truth always; this the truth.” That is the proper attitude. Do not admire and gape at the engineering achievements of countries that are able to shoot a rocket round the earth or over the moon or invent a bomb that can wipe out an entire city. That is the culmination of the strife for death and for mastery over other nations. That path leads only to misery, loss, hatred, and waste. The competition is about who will earn more in less time. All this comes about because man mistakes himself to be just a bundle Of the senses, packed into this body. Really speaking, he is a spark of divinity waiting to illumine the intelligence. Man has to develop spiritual attitude India has been announcing this Truth to the world since ages; this is the land where holy personages, divine personalities, saints and sages, Avatars, carrying the authentic stamp of God, have demonstrated that nothing else can give man the peace and joy that the contemplation of the Universal Atma can give. The poor ryot who throws a paisa into the river Godavari when he passes over the bridge might appear to the half-educated boor, smoking in the comer, to have wasted a precious coin, which he could have put to better use, perhaps, buying a bidi! But, what he did is a spiritual act; he felt that the Godavari was a living mother, who gave food to men and cattle, and his paisa is not just a coin, it is an attitude of mind, a token of gratefulness, a flower of worship. He has the Atma Bhava (spiritual attitude), while the critic who sneers at him is suffering from Anatma-Bhava (un-spiritual attitude). Hindu Dharma teaches man to see and develop this Atma-Bhava not only with all mankind who are bound by the same tie of kinship, but, with all beings and all nature. Man is not isolated; he is one with all. All have to be served:, all have to be known, for he is this all.” The Minister for Panchayat Raj, Dr. M. N. Lakshmi Narasaiah; and the Deputy Minister for Municipality and Religious Endowments, Sri Aalapati

Sri Sathya Sai Visit to Tiruchirappalli in Tamil Nadu December 13 – 19, 1966 Swami reached Whitefield on the 14th December, 1966 and gave Darshan to the devotees gathered there. He left for Tiruchirappalli via Madras on 15th morning. Swami inaugurated the three day Session of the Prashanti Vidwan Maha Sabha in Tiruchirappalli on 16th December.  Mahavidwan Sri Arumuganavalar, Superintendent of the Institute for Training of Hindu Religious Teachers, Madras, addressed the gathering. Swami blessed the devotees with His Discourse. He said: “There is a great deal of argument and agitation because the currency has been devalued; some say it is a good step, some say it had to be done whether good or bad, some argue it could have been avoided or postponed. But the net result has been anxiety and worry for all. More important, however, and more to be deplored is the devaluation of man that has been taking place systematically in recent times. Man is held to be a tool, an instrument, and not as born primarily for his own fulfillment. Each man has to educate himself through trials and errors and attain graduation by reaching the full knowledge of his own reality. He has a great destiny and he is equipped with the skills needed to achieve that destiny. He is not a helpless victim of circumstances. But the tragedy is that he has allowed the equipment to rust through neglect and he has forgotten the goal. The road he has to traverse is also overgrown with brambles and the signboards have disappeared. That is why the person who laid the road has come again to lead man along it, after repairs and renewals.Consider how man has been shaped since millions of years for this high destiny. During the primeval cosmic chaos, there were two phenomena struggling to overwhelm each other. On one side was the fiery lava flood vomited by the volcanoes and emanating from the crevices and chasms that scarred the horrifying face of the earth. The destructive conflagration swept in all directions scattering panic and death, heralding the end of everything. On the other side, scarcely noticed, microscopic amoeba floated furtively on the water’s edge or clung desperately in the cracks of rocks, keeping the faint spark of life unharmed from fire and flood. Who could have predicted at that time that the future was with the animalcule or amoeba, whose appearance itself was due to an accident, and whose survival was an enigma? Who could have foreseen that these minute specks of life could hold out triumphantly against the devastating onslaught of heat and cold? Man is the zenith of creation But that speck of Chaitanya or Life-Consciousness won through. Sheer intelligence, adaptability and perseverance in ‘willing’ to live helped it to defeat the mortal fury of the elements. By the unfoldment of that Chaitanya, the amoeba blossomed into various species of living beings, gigantic and microscopic; at last, it grew into man; in man, it bore fruit as goodness and virtue, sympathy and sacrifice, oratory and music, song and dance, scholarship and Sadhana, martyrdom and sainthood, and as repositories of Divinity; nay, even divine Manifestations assumed the human form. This is the reason why man is said to be the zenith of creation. This is the purpose for which he has struggled through stone and grass, tree, bird and beast. Hence, man should not fritter away the precious prize he has won; he should not slide back into the beast; he must move forward into Divinity. He must become aware of his strength and weaknesses and become clear about his goal, his path and his potentialities. He must act up to his worth and capacity.  Ego is the seed pot of down-dragging tendencies  Man is endowed with the capacity to separate himself from his body and the senses and the mind and the intelligence. He feels and says, My eyes, my ears, my feet, my hands, my mind, my reason, etc. He knows, deep down in his consciousness, that he is apart from all these; that he is their user, owner and master. No animal feels itself different from the body; for them, they are the body. They do not know that they are occupants of the physical frames. Man can, by a simple exercise in silent reasoning, discover that the physical frame is unreal and temporary. This should lead to Vairagya (detachment), achieved through Vichakshana (analysis), the result of Viveka (discrimination). Once man is free from undue attachment to the body and its appurtenances, he is liberated also from the pulls of joy-grief, good-bad, pleasure-pain, etc. He is firmly established in equanimity, fortitude, undisturbed balance. Then man discovers that the world is one kin, in God; that all is Joy, Love, Bliss. He realises that he himself is all this apparent world, that all the multifarious manifestations are the fantasies of the Divine Will, which is his own reality. This expansion of one’s individuality to cover the ends of the Universe is the highest leap of man. It gives supreme Ananda (bliss), an experience for which sages and saints spent years of prayer and asceticism. Egoism is the seed pot of greed, envy, anger, malice, conceit and a host of other down-dragging tendencies. They cloud his intelligence; they divert the attention from truth and make the false appear as real, the real distorted as false. So it becomes essential to cleanse the mind of these through regular Sadhana, to tune the little will to the Infinite Will of God, so that it becomes merged in His Glory. Scholarship or skill, however deep and varied, have no cleansing power. They only add the alloys of pride and competition. Learned men are not necessarily good, nor are men with spiritual powers over nature above pride, envy and greed. Satya, Dharma, Shanti and Prema are the hallmarks of a purified heart, a heart where God is enshrined and is manifest.  Man today lives only at the animal level The world is

Sri Sathya Sai – The Sadguru – By Dr. D. K. K. Vamsi When I was asked to write about my experiences with Swami, I was in a dilemma, as I had never written any of my experiences before. Nevertheless, recollecting the beautiful moments with Swami rather than the thought of writing an article left me with an ocean of gratitude for the love He has showered upon me. On deeper introspection I realised that my life owes its existence to His Grace and Compassion. The important question that I should have asked is, “What is it that Swami has not done for my living as well as my life rather than, what is it that Swami has done for my living as well as for my life?” With these feeling, I would now try to recapitulate some of the golden moments of love that He made me experience Adharam Madhuram… Nayanam Madhuram… The first thing that any devotee or a student comes across is the beautiful face, eyes and the Lotus Feet of Bhagavan. When Swami looks at us, I always feel that Swami looks at our past, present and future. When I look into in His eyes I always feel the love and concern of a mother. At the same time, there were instances when Swami would strictly warn me through His glance. All the lessons of discipline and feeling of love were experienced by me in just a single glance of His. Whenever I touched His feet I used to feel a great sense of relief. I knew that once we surrender to Him completely the problem becomes His. So the first lesson I have learnt is that we have to be very attentive when we are with Swami, as we may miss the important lessons of His life, in case we miss a single look of Swami. I have also learnt that it is only in the deep moments of silence and in a state absolute calm that we can communicate with God. Swami knows and owns everything and yet still He is so humble that He acts as if He knows nothing. We know nothing, but we act as though we know everything. We feel that we control things and it is because of us that things happen. I will recollect one incident that made me realise my ignorance. Once I was going to the Indian Institute of Technology (IIT), Kanpur for a research presentation along with my friends. I was speaking to Swami in my mind, “Bhagavan, it is because of Your grace that we are happy; we have prepared well for the examination; You have to take care of us during the presentation…” Swami patiently listened for a while in my vision and after some time He looked at me and said, “Mee Duty Meeru Cheyyandi Chalu. Migilindi Nenu Chusukuntanu” (You do your duty. That is enough, the rest I will take care). The Registrar on a later date informed us that Swami had enquired with the Vice-Chancellor in Yajur Mandir about our travel and stay at the IIT, Kanpur. This made me realise that Swami is the one who had made this trip happen and Swami is the one who was taking care of us during the trip. On the other hand, we the ignorant ones, try to update Swami, about what He has planned for us. So the lesson is to always do our duty and leave the rest to Swami. Most of the time, we often get intensely worried about our career. We plan many things for our future without realizing that God has already planned everything for us and it is only that we execute His plan in course of time. In my life I am really wonder struck at the way Swami made me do M.Phil. and PhD. He even chose the topic for my research and post-doctoral study. He indeed has taken care of my entire career. I have understood, once we are His students, He indeed makes a unique plan for each of us. Let us endeavour to execute His master plan with humility and self-confidence. Another important lesson that I have learnt is the supreme value of Bhajans. The one thing that keeps me going all along is Bhajans. Attending Bhajans every day gives me all the relief that even that best treatment in the world cannot give. It is only in the Bhajan session that we commune with God in the best possible way and obtain tremendous peace of mind and joy. This is the time for soul-searching and inner thinking, in an otherwise activity-filled day. These are the valuable lessons which have enriched my life and have elevated me. I express my deep thankfulness and gratitude to Bhagavan who is the very Light of my life. I pray to Him to make me a worthy instrument of His. – Dr. D.K.K. Vamsi Student and Research Scholar (2001-2013) Currently, Assistant Professor Department of Mathematics and Computer Sciences Sri Sathya Sai Institute of Higher Learning Prasanthi Nilayam Campus

“Do you want diamond or Sai Baba?” December 18,  1997 Swami asked a school student to remove his diamond ring, which He had materialised for him earlier.  Swami  : (To the student) What do you want? Student   : You, Swami. Swami  : Do you want diamond or Sai Baba? Student  : Sai Baba. Swami  : Why? Sai Baba is available for ₹ 2 outside (Referring to the rings with Swami’s photos in them sold on the footpath outside Prasanthi Nilayam Ashram). Diamond has very high value. Swami blew on the ring thrice and changed it into a gold ring with an embellished picture of Swami showing Abhaya Hasta. Swami  : Sai Baba can change the sky into earth and the earth into sky in seconds, in seconds… (Giving the ring to the student) Now, no fear of diamond. You can wear it continuously. Teacher  : Swami can do anything. So please transform our minds. Swami, we need Your grace… Swami  : Capacity, capacity, sir. Teacher  : Even that comes with Swami’s grace.  Swami  : Yes, yes. I will do. But not now… at the right time. Time, time. Time is important, sir. Everything is time.  Evening This evening the school captains were sitting in the second block. The 12th and 10th class students were sitting in the fourth block. During Darshan, Swami spoke to the students sitting in the fourth block… Student  : Swami, please allow us to come for morning Darshan. Swami  : Every morning, I am coming to the ground. Stand along the roadside and have Darshan. After interview, Swami came to the second block and spoke to the School captains… Swami  : (Pointing towards the lion) See, the lion is very hungry. I will give you all to the Lion (Smiling). (To a student) Do you participate in high jump? Student  : Yes, Swami. Swami  : How high can you jump. Student  : Swami, 5½ feet. Swami  : What only 1½ feet? Even a girl can jump that much. Do you participate in long jump? Student  : Yes, Swami. Swami  : How much can you jump? Student  : Swami, ten feet. Swami  : Even a cockroach can jump that distance.  (Looking at a logo representing cycling in the card) What is this? Student  : Swami cycling. Swami  : It does not look like cycling, it looks like ring tennis. Who made this card? Student  : Swami myself. Swami  : (Looking at the picture, Swami commented humorously) You ride a cycle with hands or legs??? Student  : With legs Swami. Swami… Padanamaskar. Swami  : How can I give only to you? So many students are there Student  : Swami please give to all students. Swami  : No time, flute will start. Student  : Swami Padanamaskar for captains. Swami  : How many? Student  : Fifteen Swami. Swami  : Fifteen captains??? How can there be fifteen captains in one game? It will create confusion; there should be only one captain. (Then Swami permitted them to take Padanamaskar. One of the students asked for morning Darshan) Study well… Second year. After this you have engineering and medicine, you should get above 85- 90%.

Sri Sathya Sai Visits Trippunittura and Ernakulam in Kerala Swami gave Darshan to the multitudes at Devi Vilas, Palghat and granted interviews to the sick and to the students on 20th and 21st. Swami laid the foundation stone for a Bhajan Mandir at the Sathya Sai Colony, Olavakkot on the 20th and visited Kongal village. Swami blessed the stones meant to serve as the foundation stones for the Sai Maharaj Paper and Pulp Mills, Chittore on the 21st at a special function held at Devi Vilas. Later, He left for Kollengod. He was accorded a traditional welcome at Kollengod Palace. Swami held in check the rain that was threatening to come down heavily until He finished His hour long Discourse. This miracle was reported in the Kerala newspapers the subsequent day. Swami blessed the children of Chinmaya Nursery School and Members of the Chinmaya Satsang at Kollengode Palace and left for Trippunittura.  Swami visited the house of a Christian devotee and addressed a mammoth gathering from the 1st floor of that house. Later He laid the foundation stone for a Sathya Sai Mandir planned by this same devotee. Swami proceeded to Ernakulam where many Judges of Kerala High Court and other government officials received His Blessings. Swami then left for Alleppey and reached there at 10.00 pm. Swami gave Darshan to hundreds of devotees at Saraswati Vihar, Allepey, on the 22nd, and on 23rd, Vaikuntha Ekadashi, Swami created a charming idol of Murali Krishna and gifted it to His host. On the same day He left Alleppy and reached Palghat in the night and blessed the devotees at Devi Vilas with His Darshan. Swami left for Ooty on the 24th and stayed at Gita Bhavan until 26th December.  Swami visited the Abhayaranyam forest along with His party on 26th. Swami reached Ooty on 27th, in time to bless the devotees with Darshan on the holy asterism of Ardra. Swami gave a Discourse and materialised a silver Shirdi Sai idol and gifted it to Smt. and Sri Mathan. Swami left for Madras on the 28th and gave Darshan to hundreds of devotees on New Year’s day.

From Doubting Thomas to Sai Devotee – By M.K. Kaw, IAS (Retd.) I first heard of Bhagavan in 1971, through an uncle. He was childless and it was the desire for progeny which had taken him to Puttaparthi. When Bhagavan called him for an interview and gave him Vibhuti, he thought he had got a son. Years passed and the state of childlessness continued. Much later, he adopted a child. Even today he speaks of Bhagavan’s interference with the Karmic law only now and then, when a devotee’s love moves Him to confer His grace.  I saw Bhagavan for the first time in 1973, when I was posted as Collector of Solan district in Himachal Pradesh. He was travelling to Shimla and He was to pass Solan en route. My wife joined the crowd of bhajan singers at the open area near the bus stand, while the Superintendent of Police and I stood on the road to look after law and order.  Suddenly, a cavalcade was sighted. There was a pilot jeep, then a car, then other vehicles. I could see a saffron robe in the back of the car. Bhagavan was seated in the middle with one person on either side. The crowds milled around the car. Bhagavan opened the door and showed Himself for about fifteen seconds. People rushed to take Padnamaskar. Before we knew what was happening, He had gone back to his seat, the crowds had parted and the caravan had proceeded on its way.  When my wife and I met, I chaffed her, “See, you were singing Bhajans and could not have Darshan. We sinners stood on the road and saw Him.” She just smiled back. When we reached home, our orderly said that he had taken my son, then two years old, to see Bhagavan pass by. As they stood on the roadside, Bhagavan stopped His car and placed His hand on my son’s forehead. We felt somehow singled out for a blessing.  I continued to hear stories about Baba’s miracles. Then I was posted to Delhi. My boss was a Bhagavan devotee. He told me of Bhagavan and His activities. I think that more than anyone else, it was he who prepared the ground. One day, he invited me to a Bhajan session at his house. There he introduced me to an IPS Officer, whose cancer had been diagnosed by doctors of the All India Institute of Medical Sciences. Having heard of Bhagavan, he got in touch with him and then used the Vibhuti materialised by Bhagavan. The cancer just vanished.  Try as hard as I might, this story shook me. How could cancer disappear without any treatment? It seemed impossible. It could not be magic. It was not something read in a book. Here was the beneficiary himself, to attest to the veracity of the story.  Then my boss went on a tour to Bangalore. When he returned, he brought back a small vial full of Amrit. And the story he narrated was just unbelievable. It seemed that there was a man at Srirangapatnam, who had a ring given by Bhagavan. Day and night, Amrit oozed from the ring. Pot after pot, vessel after vessel was filled up and yet the limitless oozing continued. My boss had held that ring on his palm and soon his palm was full of Amrit. My defences started crumbling. Then I read Murphet’s book.  Now, for the first time, I had an inkling of the range and variety of Bhagavan’s miracles and His influence over people spread over the globe. My attitude to Bhagavan started changing. I was prepared to explore for myself.  While in Shimla, as Education Secretary, in February, 1985, I had the opportunity of getting in touch with Bhagavan’s programme of Education in Human Values (EHV). This was an excellent opportunity to promote this innovative programme.  Shortly before this I had published a book “The Science of Spirituality” in which my thesis was that there was a core to all religions which was more or less the same. I had pleaded that this was a science, a body of knowledge that could be tested on the anvil of logic and reason, that there were laws of the spiritual realm which were as real and immutable as the laws of physics and chemistry, and that spirituality should be a subject taught in schools.  Here seemed an answer to my plea. The Sathya Sai Organisation had not only a similar approach, it had also created the pedagogy. Here was spirituality, cast in a secular mould, that could be immediately transmitted to children. There were precious nuggets to be found in the secularization of spirituality. “Meditation” was called “silent sitting”. Mathematical problems, instead of asking how much a shopkeeper would gain by cheating, would now ask how much he should give away in charity.  I was fascinated by the EHV programme. A five-day workshop organised in Shimla by the Government in full collaboration with the Sri Sathya Sai Organisation, EHV was formally introduced in the schools and a teachers’ training programme launched. A batch of 100 teachers was deputed to a national conference being held at Puttaparthi.  Professor Shyam Sunder, who was head of the Sai Organisation in Himachal Pradesh, wanted me to visit Puttaparthi too. I was reluctant, not sure whether an “official” trip would be in order. Then I learnt that the conference was to be inaugurated by Shri K. C. Pant, the then Union Minister of Education. I stayed at Puttaparthi for just three days – 1st to 3rd June, 1985. But these were days of transformation. Bhagavan Himself was a surprise. He was so slight, so dainty and delicate. His smile was boyish; His eyes devoted to your welfare. When He came close, He was small and sweet and motherly. When He went after, His shoulders seemed broad and His face stern, and one could sense the aloofness and majesty of Shiva. But the biggest surprise was myself. When Bhagavan came